Thursday, December 01, 2005
444
Hola, well here i am sitting here feeling very happy and feeling that things are all good. Had a good week probably the same things going on but me feeling like im more in control of my life. I havent touched any cocaine all week and wow how much money have i banked. Im not going to blag i did 7 days and did get drawn into fancying some today so i have fallen off the waggon so to speak but im not feeling my usual horrible self like i am so used to. But that feeling of leading a normal well i wont say normal cause i dont use that word what is normal. However i have had an awsome structured week and enjoyed it so much more than the fuzz of life i have become so accustomed to. Its all a learning process dealing with my addiction yes i am going to type that and admit to it for the first time. I was tempted to do it through a sociable event rather than the norm of going on mad binges on my own. Did i enjoy it or am i enjoying it seen as im still on it. Yes because im enjoying the fact that it will soon be replaced with much more things or feelings that, that fucking shit can ever make me feel. Ive always been aware that it has been a subtitute or something that i do just because nothing else is going on. If your reading this and thinking what the fuck is she going on about then just tell me but i think im talking well trying to understand why i do certain things. Anyway if you have been reading this adventure of mine you may remeber i have become more aware of my heart and soul of lately. 444 you may wonder my title of choice today well: Did i mention angels a little while back well maybe some will think this is a crock what an earth is this girl going on about well i dont give a hoot im gonna try and unravel my recent events. So here goes i met a girl during the last week through a kind of friend of mine turns out shes very spiritual we got talking and i touched down on little things i have been reading lately. She mentioned a site which i stored in my favorite box as i do to read when im ready. Anyway i went into this site that she had mentioned and was drawn to a brief article on sequenced numbers it stood out so i read it. Anyway i have over the last few weeks found a spiritual site which at times i may add have been on there and maybe at times felt flustrated but still kept going back. Within an hour of going into a chat forum the only person or first person i connect with is called 444bloke. It wasnt until i started listening to my intuition that it all of a sudden started to fall into place. I have given this man i met this journal address i hope he reads it and maybe well lets just see. He didnt scare me the truth dosent frighten me as i told him. I dont no this man he dosent no me but he heard me he listened and that felt good. Anyway im going to be back real soon be nice watever situations arise everyone has there day xxxxxxxxxxx
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Where the hell do i start ! Well i give a mint blow job !! For now ill just say ive been on a bender for the last 10 years i work in the adult industry and i live a mad life.
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