The Devils Dandruff

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Cool poem !

Devils Dandruff"

You pulled me in like I couldn't believe
so fast and ever so bold.
You were there for me when i felt I had nothing,
and when the world was being so cold.

Before I knew it you became so near
and everything else so far-
but what I sadly couldn't see
was just how addicting you are.

People warned me to stay away
...and that it just couldn't possibly be.
Yet I pushed them away & drew you closer,
I was convinced you were the right one for me.

The fun times came first, & boy were they fun
I thought that they'd never end.
I couldn't see I had isolated myself
or that you were my only friend.

To see you was like beauty to me
...powdered whit as snow.
Under the surface you're something quite ugly
but at that time...I didn't know.

We didn't quite connect at first
and now I wish that we never had.
But you were there for me and took pain from me
and for that i was so glad.

As time progressed I found myself
thinking of you more and more.
The more I thought I began to see
that I was becoming increasingly poor.

Before I knew it or could realize
we were together everyday.
If I wasn't with you I was thinking of
you ...but I continued anyway.

I began absorbing more of you
in fact the most I possibly could.
When you were absent I felt lost in life
....without you I was in a bad mood.

By this time people had stopped taking
who could blame them..I didn't care.
But what I didn't know but soon found out
was that you were nothing but a living nightmare.

I felt no pain yet nothing to gain
you made life nothing but an illusion.
You gave me paradise and then sent me to hell
which left me in a state of confusion.

You sat and watched me go down the tubes
(while blood dripped down my face from my nose)
you began to make me feel raw and empty inside
...that's when contradicting thoughts of you arose.

I soon realized and began to see
what I let happen and that you'd won.
I gave into you...and stayed with you
...despite all the damage you'd done.

I always had you there to comfort me
(in reality you were hurting me instead.)
You made me blind I couldn't see your intentions
...until I almost wound up dead.

Your breath of death came down my throat
I felt so lucky to have even survived.
I thought the scare of death was enough,
but one day later I ran back to you, I had lied.

Although we weren't together as much anymore
I knew you had the same hold on my life;
whenever you were mentioned or came around
I lost all hope...dignity...and strife.

I tried to decide and thought I had- that
you no longer could be a part of me.
But it was far too late- I surrendered myself
I asked God how this could possibly be.

That one last night will remain in my mind
for the last memory (& all the pain & the fear)
...but today with help I'm learning to live...
forever without you here.

We had our good times and our bad times
but I've grown tired of frying my brain.
I'll always remember you & I'll always love you
...........goodbye forever cocaine.......

© Copyright 2007 Shannon L. Elliott

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