The Devils Dandruff

Monday, August 31, 2009

The ninth month of the year 2009

I'm sat here wondering where the hell i should start ? Ill just type and see if i can make any sense of my shitty messed up life. Its now August in fact all months just keep passing by and leaving no meaning or lasting memories in my mind.

The American dream that i have spent the last three years of my life chasing is getting further and further away. The last i heard from Henry was he had applied for his passport and he would be here by June. The man has disappeared for the last five months. How could he be so heartless having promised me and given me his word that he would never do what Sha did too me.

These American men are deranged ! so I'm feeling kind of fucked up at the moment. Business has suffered badly because of my emotional state. That is not good because my hustle is the foundation of my whole world. Can you believe that i have took a backward step ! Not forgetting the credit crunch fucking hell i am having to experience day to day things that are what normal people do. BOGOF at tesco no more M&S or Waitrose !

I really am feeling the pinch its hideous. Shall i fill you in on my greatest vice of all The devils dandruff" well who would have thought that some government funded drug programme actually cured my addiction wow i have nothing but admiration and love for Sonia the girl who showed me a life without cocaine !

Bet you wer'nt expecting me to drop that on you was you ! "true story" the days of getting twisted are well and truly over. Of course i still do it but when i choose too. My life changed so much when i gave into my biggest vice of all ! I sleep in my bed seven nights out of seven, i wake up to the birds singing not me waking them up ha !

I have spent the last ten years of my life living my whole life in an industry that has bought no lasting results. I never saw all of this coming in my wildest dreams. Fuck i am in a dark place once again i cant keep doing the same things and getting the same results.

roxyfoxy @ 1:22 pm

Comments:

Well come back! Glad to hear your still about and moving forward.

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Anonymous : 6:20 pm

I'm glad you are back posting again, (sorry, no emotional help here), but you have opened my eyes to so many things that happen in "real life" - please keep posting, and I'm happy you feel better in yourself x

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Anonymous : 9:49 pm

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