The Devils Dandruff

Diary of a High Class Hooker.....Enjoy Your Stay!

Diary of a High Class Hooker.....Enjoy Your Stay!

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Just get to the point

Well i need to get back into my absent journal. Oh my god do i really no what day it is. By five oclock last night i had once again fallen off the waggon. Saw a few clients yesterday and put the whole lot i earned up my nose. What the fuck was the point seven grams at the last count and still on it. Fuck that is a pair of Gucci shoes dam it ! went to see a client in the city last night i was that twisted i went to the wrong hotel. Anyway turns out funnily enough we end up getting coked up his lucky night. Infact im sure within the first few words he asked if i had any gear i wish i had said no. Ended up comeing back to my house and getting high together. Didnt take me long to call him a taxi he irritated the fuck out of me ! or am i just so used to being alone. The plot thickens my friend well coke mate i no it she nos it ! knocks on my door end up getting more twatted than ever. Till the gear ran out how many times did she try to get some shes fucking mad for it.

Didnt really have a fun night again, just made me realise that every person that passed through my door were wankers. The two punters wanted me for sex. My two mates came over to weigh up the coke. My client from the hotel for free coke and sex. My friend who really isnt cause she didnt want to go home and she wanted a place to hang. My neighbor who bought more coke that wanted some sex to be fair we had a ball. We went on a webcam and played around which was all good except having 100 plus people watching you when you are on coke fucking pure horrors. As much as i clame to love sex i dont think i do or am i more interested getting higher.

Then the last entry that has come here was another dealer no wonder i see cocaine as my only friend. Infact does anyone really care about me dosent look like it. Infact does anyone give a hoot ?!!!!!!! the phones been ringing like mad every call is freeking me out again i wonder why everyone sounds so intimidating to me, or seems to have an ulteria motive for calling me. Maybe thats why i love getting high cause it takes me away from things that are not nice. Another day of my life wasted doing this shit. I still keep hopeing, dreaming fantasising and breathing my dream. Everyday and lately even hour i wait for an ending a beggining even, or an answer or purpose that all of this shit was for a reason and that is the dream. This sad, mad and truley awsome at times life i lead I could give it all up tomorrow so why dont i ? you make your own descisions in life everyone is given the same opportunity it depends how you choose to use them. If i were to make the choice the choice to give up being a hustler being a survivour being the person i am what would have been the point and that is what i search for the point i only can hope it will become clear when my dream becomes reality.

What is my dream i ask myself sitting here thinking, Ive just realised all it is not mercs not cartier the only thing i want is to be loved simple but fucking hard to find im finding ! so maybe you do have to feel the rain before you get to the rainbow something like that anyway! Well i have really enjoyed writing this tonight, today all the same when you infect your body with the devils dandruff ! but i dont really see that having a point LOL dont get me on the point waffle purlease shit maybe the point of that is to Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Hola xxxxxxx

roxyfoxy @ 11:05 pm

Comments:

been reading some of ur comments ur a pure nut job :-) in the nicest way! hang in there ur hearts in the right place... best intentions and all that x hope you've found some inner peace (without sounding like some hippy-dippy!) anyway i've never blogged soneone (or whatever the yoot call it now) but like ur style. one love one tribe x ;-) xx

# posted by

Anonymous : 2:06 pm

Thankyou for your comment lots of love me x

# posted by

roxyfoxy : 2:14 pm

oh my god i have just read this and i feel your pain this is my life down to a t it is hard when you love and hate what your doing at the same time but it is all you have got untill you find what you truly want

# posted by

reidtwizzal@hotmail.com : 5:41 pm

oh my god i have just read this and i feel your pain this is my life down to a t it is hard when you love and hate what your doing at the same time but it is all you have got untill you find what you truly want

# posted by

reidtwizzal@hotmail.com : 5:41 pm

Thanks for the comment even though i dont deserve one,as i have truely neglected the only good thing in my life !

# posted by

roxyfoxy : 5:47 pm

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Cocaine, Champayne, Sex, Money and bullshit. Forget Belle De Jour, Bridget Jones who's she !! this is the real deal enjoy xx

: Name: roxyfoxy; Location: United Kingdom

Where the hell do i start ! Well i give a mint blow job !! For now ill just say ive been on a bender for the last 10 years i work in the adult industry and i live a mad life.

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