The Devils Dandruff

Saturday, May 13, 2006

A million magic crystals, painted pure and white

Today's events that I have had to deal with have made me realize I have been canning it far too much lately. Loads of things that I should have been doing I haven't.

Got the call I have been waiting for this morning. my new house will be ready to exchange contracts the last week in June. The builders wanted me to go to the site I couldn't even manage that. there's no way I can put 100 % into my new project and be on gear at the same time.

I went for a sauna this afternoon, I lay there beating myself up but at the same time feeling good, as the move is another step up in my life. As much as I have fun and lots of it at that. Deep down in my heart, I know its time that I realize after ten years and spunking well over 100K, and that's my accountants calculation.

That I cant carry on. I have really noticed, only maybe in the last year that health wise I have never felt so sluggish, and my main concern is, and it is a fucking big one at that. Im going to use this blog to be honest about the lows which is only fair as im so honest with the highs ! I really am finding this hard as I am so used, to just riding with my life. That's the problem, that's all I will ever be doing, if my best friend is cocaine.

I am cool with this whole situation, except my nose which I worry about everyday as my right nostril has started to show signs of corrosion. Im glad I went for that sauna today and im glad I created this blog. It has shown me im a far better person without that shit.

I will continue my mad adventures for the time being and hopefully get back my business that I managed to screw up. I cant say if I will never do another bump again, but for the time being the lows have totally outweighed the highs so there's no point. I have deleted all the contacts out of my cell and look forward to putting my energy and money into something that wont decrease my bank accounts to zero !!

roxyfoxy @ 5:15 pm

Comments:

WOW! Can't say I saw that coming. I did in fact re-read your posts and I have to be honest with you, you are making the right call.

Hang in there Rox. I think you are headed somewhere and I am sure you know the way.

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Duke : 5:27 am

Thanks Duke,was great to get up this morning have breakfast etc having beeing in bed all night !Everything is going to be ok i know.

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roxyfoxy : 12:03 pm

Way to go, roxy!!!! I'll be supporting mentally on my side!!

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Fiona Ling : 6:30 am

hey girl good to see you worry about yourself dont fall into those same traps so many others have you couold have whatever you want just use a little control hope to hear from you for a long time love it and you

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