Saturday, December 31, 2005
Just a few tips to make your session risk free Haa
How considerate of someone to dedicate a site to ensuring you get the most out of your buzz. (bless)Safer dancing:
If you're out larging it all night, be careful not to overdo it. If you start to get too hot, move to a cooler area or chill out for a bit. Try and drink a pint of water an hour (not alcohol) and splash a bit of water on your head and neck to keep your temperature down. Loosen your clothes and take time out to let your body cool down. Don't go to the other extreme and stand outside in a Gale Force Ten wind as shock may set in. Make sure you don't get too cold and have something warm to put on. Serious problems:If you see any of the following get medical help immediately:
Cocaine: for those rich enough to overdose, expect them to be confused and dizzy with a dry throat. Their breathing will be erratic with short gulps followed by deep gulps.
Recovery Position:If they are still breathing, turn them on their front with their head sideways. Bend their upper arm and leg and straighten the other arm parallel to their leg
Coming Down
After a hard night's partying it's important to wind down and let your body recover. Smoking strong weed or skunk to help you come off uppers like ecstasy can sometimes increase the feelings of anxiety and paranoia and make matters worse.Using downers like Valium, Termazepam and heroin are risky because you're using drugs that are more physically addictive than E, speed or acid, and you might start to rely on them.Hammering down the booze isn't too clever either as the alcohol dehydrates your body making you feel twice as bad next day. It's better to drink non-alcoholic fluids and let your body come down naturally. Eat well, take it easy and relax. The next day:The effects of some drugs can last well into the next day and even longer. Some users can feel disorientated, tired, irritable and even paranoid or anxious after a hard night. The day after a mental night, try and take it easy, eat well, put your feet up in front of the tele and give your body a chance to recover fully.That way you'll be fit, healthy and ready for the next session!
I feel a shit coming on
Rack um up
Friday, December 30, 2005
Call 999 my ass ate my dildo
Oh lordy, thought id share this hideously amusing tale with you. Having finally got into bed this morning i began fucking myself with two dildos but as i was wrecked i missjudged the size of one of my dildos and grabbed a dildo that was too small. All of a sudden the dildo in my ass was literally up my ass, shit was i in the horrors ! i really thought i needed to call 999 can you imagine what was going through my mind. I had to stoop on the bed and push and all all of a sudden the dildo shot out like a fuckin bullet. Did i learn my lesson no i just delved back into my bag of toys and got a bigger one out and finished the job off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!What a greedy bitch
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Ive called in the experts
Well before you jump the gun im not going into rehab and have not been sectioned. Ive been pondering over this blog and ive decided to seek expert help. Its not happening, i thought over time it would all fall into place and id be rocking. Its starting to really nause me so hopefully soon it will have a better layout with better features.This is for all you peasents who pass by and dont say hola kiss my ass !!!
Miss innocent !!
Moody Bitch !
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Have I seen daylight recently ?
Well its now 2.29 pm and im just about to call it a day. Just waiting for my ready made meal to heat. God this is so slack im living like a peasant ! Well not quite im on the tesco finest range last nights dinner the next day no wonder im looking pastey ! Another day which will be spent in bed I think I've done another cheeky midweek sesh. Couldn't even get past Wednesday without going on a bender. Oh well no point doing it if your gonna regret it. Right im going to sleep nite nite xxI've lost the plot
For fucks sake, I've just experienced another chemical booty call. Lately all I seem to have been doing is having the hots for 21 year old boys Haaaaaa ! I've just used and abused another chemical fuck. Two pumps and a squirt he was, I nearly said hey speedy !!! I bet hell be wanking over me well into the new year. I figured this out I reckon that you could have the most amazing sex with someone, wanking over it for ages after, but however good it was, it doesn't stay fresh in your wank bank forever. So it always needs updating, and when your lying there with nothing to think about, that's when it needs updating. That's when you no things are bad ! That's where I come into it I wonder how many men as we speak are knocking one of wanking over me. Ok on average I see 10 clients per week (that's narrowing it down!) so 40 per month so 480 per year not counting ladies ! Nice !!!!!!!!
Im so gonna regret publishing these !!!!!!!!!
This is the knocking shop Haaaaaaaaaaa !
Comedown comfort food
I spy with my little eye. Remy Martin, Red wine, rizzla, grams of posh, skunk, Happy Christmas Hon x
Opps i did it again !
Just one snippet of my wide selection of porn ooh ya shake it baby ! come on woxy for the guys !
Princess Tallulah Belle in da house
Four days until christmas lets rock
Cant think of two much to write tonight. When i feel like this maybe i shouldnt write. Loosing interest again as no one is reading this oh well ! Went to a spirital evening this week which was pretty cool especially as she picked me out from the crowd with a message. Apparantly i have lots of questions that need answering and she advised that i keep a journal. She said that i focus on one thing but that turns huge maybe thats those mind altering experiences i tend to have. She said i have lots of love around me and i need to ask for help and guidence. It spooked me out big time i face started sweating when she addressed me who nos. Finished of my christmas shopping this evening hope people dont notice that ive shopped on a budget. I wouldnt mind if i was broke but i guess they have had to suffer as ive more than likely put far too much poke up my nose. Ive been in court this week cant be arsed to explaine why maybe i will next time but im on probation and have been put on a drug reahbiitation course so maybe ill be rich again this time next year. Bye love me xxxFriday, December 16, 2005
I dont think i like cocaine i just like the smell of it !
Well this is getting quite ridiculous if i may say so. Its now 3.42am and i cant sleep. No prozac left no sleeping pills so ive just banged a ready made bangers n parsnip mash in the microwave lovellllly! for fucks sake oh well at least its weight watchers all these dramas of lately have not done my figure any good. Ill shut up i dont want to go all Bridget Jones on myself asif ! im that overtierd i cant even be bothered to delve into my wank bank material. Mmm this tucker is tasteing like it should have michelin stars must be wrecked no diet food tastes good. Wonder what will happen today i think i need to do some work i cant afford to stay up any longer. Ive decided to stay on the waggon now hopefully the festive season wont tempt me !!!!!!!!!!!Thursday, December 15, 2005
Dear Santa please can I have some botox
Shit Rox u really need a few days at Champneys, crikey I look like a trout. I cant stop looking at my nose, and no, not from the nose candy from a client a few weeks ago who decided to kick fuck out of me. He turned from jekel to Hyde all because he had coke cock and couldn't cum so it was all my fault. I guess that's the risk you take when you open your door to strangers.How dare that piece of shit pondlife scum lay his hands on me I didn't see that coming. Lets just say when his time comes he'll wish he had never met me. So I guess that's why im feeling ugly and scrutinizing my face, I've never been knocked out by a man in my life.
Anyway im still standing yet again. Haven't slept again for 2 days due to this fucking laptop ! had to turn my phones of to avoid clients. Infact im actually sacrificing every single call just so I don't have to hear the sound of a client asking me where are you located(It categorically states in my advert where im based) cristal clear, I don't hate all my clients I have many awesome ones just the timewasters that you have to deal with in between.
Anyway im still in my pj's well in between whipping them off I cant stop frigging today im on heat. I must get a new TV in my boudouir I find it very unnecessary that the remote wont work I had to jump off the bed with the dildos still buzzing inbetween my legs to fastforward it. I love sucking cock more than urmm ? trust me I do. But I cant stand watching cocks being sucked on porn movies so that's why I could have done with a functional control. Times ticking on have to go out soon but ill take my laptop with me. Thank god for my hat collection.
Get your tits out for the lads ! (classy)
Mmmmmmm Yummy
My 7.30 client came well prepaired
Couldnt resist taking a pic of my clients bag of goodies, better than a bunch of flowers ! the only person ive ever met with more toys than me !!! laters xx
Swag bag !!
Cheers Darlin
I hope my wish comes true
Happy Birthday Roxy
Yes another year passes another birthday spent in my bed like the last 3 I think. It all started off good went out for a Thai meal with my family. As soon as I got home,(I had sealed the deal before the main course had even been served) ended up on a mammoth bender back at mine with my dealer ! at least I got laid couldn't even get out of bed the next day.Had a little cry as I always do on the 9th December which is my birthday. For as long as I can remember I do even as a child I did at my parties ! Oh well maybe next year will be better. Its only another day. Well I will add my birthday pics for now, lots has happened but for some reason im not in a typing mood so ill try again later.
Friday, December 02, 2005
Still partying my pants off
Well here I am back again, I had all good intentions of going to bed at 11pm but all of a sudden out of the blue I felt like I had jumped off a cloud ! infact I was yet again buzzing my tits of lost track of time and took a call at 3am from surprise surprise another fellow coke head who had been on a bender probably on the same gear I had as he was local.He passed the test as soon as I clarified he was on my lever couldn't of faced a client not on the level. Payed me some nice crisp wonger crossed my palm or nose should I say with more nose candy and I had now got a new edition to my never ending bender. To top it all of he was fit as fuck and chatted enough shit to blend in with my waffle.
Had fun until the same old downer developed the coke cock reared its ugly head as if I was bothered I made sure I came first id had enough by then so hes just left in a cab at 7.20 am. Just seen my first comments on this blog im well chuffed bring it on.
Approaching my third day on the Peruvian flake
Helloooooooo OOps I did it again ! no surprise there is it. Cant really add too much sense this evening as im fucking wrecked. Ill continue from yesterday I took a phone call at 6am this morning from some guy that I instantly clicked with on the phone. He landed at my house with another 3 grams of coke and a rageing hard on. He was cute but seemed to take it like we were gonna get married ! im just so used to being on my own I cant be arsed with men hanging around me.Anyway kicked him out around 10am trying to expaine to him that I had to call it a day I guess he was disappointed but that's not my problem. Went over to a friends house during the day and went completely in the horrors ended up scoring another gram on the way home and a bottle of Courvoisier. Shall I scare myself and tot up what's gone into my body during this recent relapse shall we call it. OK lets go
7 grams of cocaine
one magnum of champayne
2 vodka's and cokes
half a bottle of Courvoisier
one bottle of white grenache vino
one bottle of white wine
3 spliffs
at least 60 cartier cigarettes
10 sniffs of poppers (approx)
5 fake orgasms
and a face that looks like a boot !!!
Shit Roxy how do you do it girl !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I should really start rapping this ridiculous session up but for once I've actually got to much coke left its like rocket fuel im gurning like a bitch and my minds racing around its making me dizzy. My emotions today have gone up and down more times than a god nos cant think of anythink witty to compare at this time of night. I went from hosepipe jobby in the car to mike myers on crack WTF xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Work it girlfriend
The only boy in my life
RoxyFoxy
The Fox Mobile !!
Oh Dear !!
Mmm Yes Purleaseeeeeee
Another day another bender !
Trolleyed in a very posh hotel in Manchester
Manic Monday
Well i guess this is were the story begins fuck i have been waiting so long to share my fucked up journey! im not going to introduce myself at this moment in time that would be too boring. Im not sure how to get this thing going so forgive me if the style is different but i am different so i am told. What you see is real i guess the more i get my hed around this new diary the better it will get. I havent researched these bloggs at all so i havent got a clue! well its 2am early hours of tuesday morning sitting here infrount of a screen that has turned out to be the only thing in my life that dosent piss me off. It provides me with so much more than the people i meet in my life ever can. just got in went to see a cliet this evening yes im an escort lets call it that for the moment same old, landed at his flat 30 plus guy typical client material as i call it ! sorted the money out normal conversation until cocaine was mentioned as soon as that was in the open the whole situation changed. The devils dandruff strikes again! porno goes on everything sweet we have all of a sudden bonded through our love of cocain ! why am i surprised am i fuck i can predict the whole situation that is slowly starting to unfold im not even going to go into detail at this moment as it is so bog standard. Shit everything is so connected in this job it is so predictable you will start to no were i am com ing from.Build Up To The Weekend
Hello blogg wasnt going to come here today as i am not sure that i have anything interesting to say. But have realised i always have some pantomine ! saw a client tonight when i arrived he remembered me from abount 18 mnths ago i couldnt place him as he had moved house and lost lots of weight. Turned out he remembered me for getting the sniff out ! why am i surprised got on with him ended up going to his local pub and all of a sudden acting like we were totaly together wtf, he booked me for one hr which turned into many. Ended up comeing back to my flat just to let my cat in which ended up him staying for a few hours. Same old pattern developed where by all of a sudden he started to nause me! thank god for taxis ! its now 5.20am still sitting infrount of this thing having been on camfrog. Camfrog you will hear me talk about im sure many times its a kind of webcam programme its getting late and ive just fixed another drink snorted another line and trying my hardest to get into my bed. Im off to manchester tomorrow going to a get together that has been arranged from my fellow camfroggers ! have been thinking about the whole situation meeting people in this way, is it a good thing i ask myself ! probably not i may be wrong i just hope that i dont suddenly realise that i have put myself into a situation with people that i have absolutly nothing in common with ! Manchester here i come.White Linezzzzzzz
How the fuck can I lie in bed when there is a big fat rock of coke in the next room. Sitting here shoving it up my nose fire on mtv in the background and in front of this screen familiar or has it now become the norm. Phones starting to ring two calls already and its not even 9.30am ! this is when I shouldn't even be answering my phone usually withheld numbers I should laugh really especially when they claim they are looking for an appointment for this evening wankers !morning papers just shot through the letter box that is when it really hits me oops you did it again. Still trying to fucking get used to this dam programme given up as usual no patience rather get back to typing my fucked up life. Or is it I often wonder ! Still don't no how this journal is coming across all I no is its gonna be a bumpy ride.
The punctuation may be poor the text may be bland but don't let that put you off. fuck I really went into one then ha im laughing my ass off. Well its now 10.am think I should be focusing on getting my ass off here and packing my shit double or could be a triple bender weh hey bye bye till we speak again xx
Show Me Your Friends And I'll Tell You Who You Are
Hello my friend my destiny my saviour i dont no infact i dont no a lot these days or have i lost faith in everything or is it just people. The only time i seem to be at peace is when i am with my beloved two cats they make me more happy than any gucci cartier fuckin all the other bullshit i buy ever could or does. Its not all bad but for someone who others see as a strong survivour they would never ever realise that all the people i have met along the way and fucked me over that those two creatures keep me in this never ending madness. Trying so hard to keep this diary going even though at times i still cant get it going the way i think or is this the way it is. Im going to continue and let it go the same way as i live my life no direction. Business has been the worste ever this month spending my days answering calls to what seems like the same people day in day out. Noing that a piece of fuckin metal dictates every part of my life. In all the years of being in this industry ive never loathed it so much the bullshit they try drains the fuckin lif e out of me i used to laugh but now its just so hideous when you really see the part of the male species that not many people would ever witness. I swear that 141 was fuckin invented by a fuckin client im loosing so much business from these sad bastards i should so not be still fuckin doing this shit. Anyway went to see a regular client based in a small villiage called malvern been seeing him for maybe 4 yrs turns out old dave bless him has been having this on off relation ship with the neighbour Pam. Anyway did dave have fun books me for 1.30 pm sat there while pam comes from work. Pams a pink lady at the local school can you believe little pink lady pammy doing her shift coming into the bedroom and under that tweed pleated skirt n floral blouse shes fully loaded stockings the lot ha how funny wat goes on behind closed doors. She cdnt stop looking at me fuck me wat was she expecting ! some ragga hoe. turns out its fucked up there little affair! could have answered that could only go 2 ways after that !! I watched her give hed and fuck she was good. Never be fooled i see it all. 9am wats today going to bring everyday of my life is like this i ride with it only way i no. Even if i structured my days for what nothing to structure.Do You No What It's Like To Fuck On Cocaine
Well im still fucking on one of my famous benders. just entertained a client typical client material as i call them suited n booted too much time on his hands typical sales rep why the fuck do they all call themselves peter john or richard. The usuall small talk came out of my gob well probably waffled on at 100 miles per hour im that high. Why do all men take there watch off before they fuck you i cant help noticing everything they do i felt like telling him too trim his disgusting pubes you no the ones that are long and soft and fluffy. I usually say you would have such a better blow job if you have trimmed ! didnt want to risk it prolonging the situation keep it hard keep it hard im thinking. Passed on the massage only if they ask Haaaaaa !! Poor old Maxwell N Loulie (persians) they no as soon as i put my lingerie on there off the bed no wonder they hate men !! they no exactly what im up to. The deadly silence as he was getting dressed had to have a suit on what a nause seems to take forever to get dressed the silence seems to go on forever. Its so predictable ill take that i say (the condom in the tissue yuk) cant wait to wash my hands then its thats set you up for the night haaa get the fuck out !! phones going like mad today where the fuck do all these men keep coming from. Still trying to figure out the layout for this diary so anyone reading it wants to point me in the right direction ill give them a full personal service ! id love to put pics and listings of things of interest related to this journal. Always seems to be some juggling going on in here just opened my airing cupboard its full of £1000's of notes which have been blasted with red dye that the boys have left here. Ill call them the boys for now they are the only two people in my life that i could probably count on. I always seem to be covering there ass'es where there dodgy deals are involved. Ive been interuppted so my friends or even enemies the fox rocksxxxDont Ever Come Down
When i think about the day i had today it made me realise obviously only during the last few hours that is. It has sprung to mind that its not a spoof im not being jinxed not bad luck im off my fucking head Trying to ride with the day like i normally do, but mixing the normality with the way my head is working its kind of surreal. Infact i would be in the horrors im sure if i saw the way i looked flapping around and thats probabley me putting it kind. I have gone from one extreme to another and my emotions well ! being too many steps ahead makes it even worse. Took a call a little while ago usuall how much do you charge where are you located then he asked when i was born which was like hang on a minute it threw me so my reaction was, why are you asking that, as i imediatley thought he was checking my age. He then said what star sign are you, i told him i was a Saggitarious he said your bossy arnt you in a very soft voice, you have a very good complexion, am i right he said,Saggitarians usually have nice legs are your legs nice Kate, you like to get your own way dont you, so by then im on the deffensive saying im not bossy just that he threw me with the question. Then he went on to say, so what year were you born in then Kate, Kate being my name in the advert, so how old are you Kate so then i had to explain im 33 but have been 28 for the last maybe 5 Years meaning when i describe myself. So then he went on to say 1971, yes i replied. Are you not going to ask me what i am then Kate, i said that was to be my next question. Taurus he repplied, now he couldnt have said a better sign as my knowledge on the subject goes, i told him the only four serious relationships i had ever had were Taurians do you think they make good lovers Kate, at this point the whole situation is tripping me out i had to agree as they were. I couldnt believe he was fuckin booking his booty call on our horiscope compatibility. Then he had to push it by asking have taureans got nice cocks it was at that point that it spooked me just the way he dropped it so calmly into the conversation. So i asked him if he would like to book the appointment, his answer was, Kate im an old age pensioner do i get a discount. That was it then, dont go there with me on discounts i said im a hooker i dont get discounts so i said if he did me a chart i would consider and he said he would be in touch. Where did all that come from ! its these little stories i hope you will enjoy reading that will be one of many more to come. My bed is calling me even though my head isnt, i have a lot of damage to repair to the way i have totally disrespected my body by putting it threw the abuse i give it! this girl can caine it 8 gs at the last count infact whos counting ! You no this fox rocks !!!!!!!!Three Fucks and I Still Haven't Come
Wow i have just noticed that people have checked out whats going on in here cool. Remember it is under construction and will have a proper layout very soon i hope so hang on in there. Well after i logged off last night i went to my bed doing the same routine that always happens when im on one. (thats my term for being off my head) put one of my pornos on i have a wide selection by the way and had a fucking good wank mmm i guess that is the final part of how can i put it well i dont no its just kind of thats the way it goes. Infact its absolutley compulsive i never go to bed on a high without cuming the whole scenario is bazzar cause as soon as i explode at a touch of the button i flick the porno off which stays in the same place until the next time! shit id love to live underneath me im sure my neighbours below must here whats going on. Thats another reason why i am looking at moving out so i can fuck myself and do whatever without thinking if anyone can hear. Had a cool day today the boys came over for dinner well they were here for that fucking long sorting out those red dyed banknotes id got thousands of pounds going round in my washing machine with them trying to get that fucking dye out. I wish they would just take the fucking lot and be done with im sick of looking at them pair of jokers !! Went to see a client this evening his name was Tim nice but too nice if you not what i mean i went into his bedroom and he had tealights lit all around the room with the matress on the floor and check this out covered in plastic rose petals ! i commented on the tealights andhe was screwing that they had nearly all burnt out because i was late. I fancied a good fuck i was well up for it but he is what i call shit fuck ! i didnt help when i noticed he had a plastic rose petal stuck on the crack of his ass. I was in high demand this evening was meant to go and see a regular client that i find absolutly repulsing so as soon as i got a call from a client staying at a hotel at the airport im affraid poor old Keith had to be put on hold untill tomorrow, which i knew he would be fine with. I did feel a little guilty as he is in a wheelchair and i no he would have bathed and been sitting waiting for me but im affraid business is business and i call the shots. Ive seen three clients today and had tree fake orgasms ! its not always like that but none of them were worth cuming even for the sheer hell of it ! Its now 4am have had two cheeky grams today dont no why i bothered because with me its all or nothing when i say that i mean i would rather go on a full bender whats the point otherwise ! I think thats why poor old Keith got blown away i cant stand anything ugly or not to my taste when i take cocaine. Ive set myself a curfew this evening to be in bed by 5am but im now starting to feel quite nicely mashed. Is it nice though, is it clever, am i really enjoying sitting up all night and seeing it get light smoking myself senseless fucking up my body, yes and no is all i can say. A lot of the time its sheer boredom! of cause i love going on one it rocks dont get me wrong but until something else or somebody comes along i cant see me stopping sometimes i look at it as my only friend.I believe in angels
Hello long time ! im not feeling too good today well for the last week that is. Infact ive never been so scared in all of my life. Yes i am a hooker and yes i do answer the door to strangers but lately it has been on my mind more than it has ever been. I learnt last week that there is a gang of men who opperate in the area i work and have been for some time, praying on girls in my industry not only robbing them but rapeing them and cutting them up with a machettie. They work smart by one of the gang going to see the girl then letting them in and beating shit out of them and doing there premises over. Maybe i could handle that but what hurts so much is that my darling maxwell and tallulah belle would be there if they can do what they do to girls and get there kicks from it i shudder to think if it were to happen to me and my babies were there. Every phone call i receive my heart goes i cant go on like this. My cocaine debt is rising sky high again im sitting here once again hating life and what i have got myself involved in. I pray that i have an angel to protect me. Please i dont think i can take physical pain on top of the pain i feel from this life. I dont believe in god so i cant pray but i hope i have a guardian angel. My two babies i couldnt see them hurt. None of this is new they have been around a long time maybe this is a wake up call i dont no what i am going to do. I just pray that i am safe and never have to experience the sick fucked up minds of these people who pray on girls like me.Don't let the bastards get you down
Hello, here I am again keeping my hed up as Tupac sung tonight in my car coming home from a booking. Feeling a lot stronger today or is it because im high. Couldn't sleep much last night or shall I say morning. Woke up from having the worst fucked up dreams ever. What have I done to my beautiful home, by letting strangers into my house I no longer have any part of me left.didn't answer any calls today those that I did made me wish I hadn't. Went to Weight Watchers tonight another bane of my life lost 21bs or does that qualify. More like I went on a mad one so haven't eaten. It made me feel good for all of 2 seconds nothing feels good at the moment I feel like selling my expensive sports car fucking off all of my high outgoings and just living the normal 9 to 5 life that most people endure.
Nearly 5am been up so long again its beginning to show. Im 33 years old if I give it all up tomorrow what will I have achieved absolutely fuck all. Making all the money that I do doesn't make me any happier so what's the point.
Yes what is the point I wish I knew. I felt so much better when I snorted that first line today but it has made me feel a lot worse than the high it gave me. Sitting here looking at my little tallulah Belle out the corner of my eye noing she is watching the way I live my life and Maxwell I see the look of sadness they have in there eyes. God I love them so so much they keep my heart beating and my veins pumping. I hope tomorrow brings some happiness but then again I doubt it. For as long as I live my life is spent answering my phone to the people who make me down but fund the coke to bring me back up I doubt it.
I cant wait to get my layout so I can show you a bit more about me. I wonder who is reading this thing if anybody who nos cause I don't understand the site too much. No im not thick infact im far from it I just find this site very poor for new members. Anyway im sure in time itll all fall into place. Anyway my friends im going to go to my bed and catch some zeds and try and look after the lovely looks I was blessed with. Until the next time: E x
My name is cocaine
My name is cocaine - call me coke for short.
I entered this country without a passport.
Ever since then I've made lots of scum rich.
Some have been murdered and found in a ditch.
I'm more valued than diamonds, more treasured than gold.
Use me just once and you too will be sold.
I'll make a schoolboy forget his books,I'll make a beauty queen forget her looks.
I'll take a renowned speaker and make him a bore,
I'll take your mother and make her a whore.
I'll make a schoolteacher forget how to teach,
I'll make a preacher not want to preach.
I'll take all your rent money and you'll be evicted.
I'll murder your babies or they'll be born addicted.
I'll make you rob, and steal and kill,When you're under my power.
You have no will. Remember, my friend, my name is "Big C,"
If you try me one time you may never be free.
I've destroyed actors, politicians and many a hero.
I've decreased bank accounts from millions to zero.
I make shooting and stabbing a common affair.
Once I take charge, you won't have a prayer.
Now that you know me, what will you do?You'll have to decide, it's all up to you.
The day you agree to sit in my saddle
The decision is one that no one can straddle.
Listen to me, and please listen well,
Just get to the point
Well i need to get back into my absent journal. Oh my god do i really no what day it is. By five oclock last night i had once again fallen off the waggon. Saw a few clients yesterday and put the whole lot i earned up my nose. What the fuck was the point seven grams at the last count and still on it. Fuck that is a pair of Gucci shoes dam it ! went to see a client in the city last night i was that twisted i went to the wrong hotel. Anyway turns out funnily enough we end up getting coked up his lucky night. Infact im sure within the first few words he asked if i had any gear i wish i had said no. Ended up comeing back to my house and getting high together. Didnt take me long to call him a taxi he irritated the fuck out of me ! or am i just so used to being alone. The plot thickens my friend well coke mate i no it she nos it ! knocks on my door end up getting more twatted than ever. Till the gear ran out how many times did she try to get some shes fucking mad for it.Didnt really have a fun night again, just made me realise that every person that passed through my door were wankers. The two punters wanted me for sex. My two mates came over to weigh up the coke. My client from the hotel for free coke and sex. My friend who really isnt cause she didnt want to go home and she wanted a place to hang. My neighbor who bought more coke that wanted some sex to be fair we had a ball. We went on a webcam and played around which was all good except having 100 plus people watching you when you are on coke fucking pure horrors. As much as i clame to love sex i dont think i do or am i more interested getting higher.
Then the last entry that has come here was another dealer no wonder i see cocaine as my only friend. Infact does anyone really care about me dosent look like it. Infact does anyone give a hoot ?!!!!!!! the phones been ringing like mad every call is freeking me out again i wonder why everyone sounds so intimidating to me, or seems to have an ulteria motive for calling me. Maybe thats why i love getting high cause it takes me away from things that are not nice. Another day of my life wasted doing this shit. I still keep hopeing, dreaming fantasising and breathing my dream. Everyday and lately even hour i wait for an ending a beggining even, or an answer or purpose that all of this shit was for a reason and that is the dream. This sad, mad and truley awsome at times life i lead I could give it all up tomorrow so why dont i ? you make your own descisions in life everyone is given the same opportunity it depends how you choose to use them. If i were to make the choice the choice to give up being a hustler being a survivour being the person i am what would have been the point and that is what i search for the point i only can hope it will become clear when my dream becomes reality.
What is my dream i ask myself sitting here thinking, Ive just realised all it is not mercs not cartier the only thing i want is to be loved simple but fucking hard to find im finding ! so maybe you do have to feel the rain before you get to the rainbow something like that anyway! Well i have really enjoyed writing this tonight, today all the same when you infect your body with the devils dandruff ! but i dont really see that having a point LOL dont get me on the point waffle purlease shit maybe the point of that is to Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Hola xxxxxxx
Just a message to me
Be comfortable with not knowing your purpose!From that state of not knowing / inner peace will arise the impulse for action
- hopefully right action (based on responsibilities & intuition - heart & mind - not based on lower desire / fear / greed / -ve ego / hate)
Also what may seem as weird now will fit into place later when you have a bigger perspective - spiraling jigsaw
All good lets rock
Hey well yes as the title says things are going well. Have done a bit of soul searching lately, and it has helped me understand this mad life we live a lot better. Anyway feeling good at the moment have decided to change a few things so hopefully it will all be positive.wasn't really going to work today but I took a call this morning from a guy well a slob more like. What a prick started off bad I could see him driving around my cul de sac, bearing in mind I had told him to call if he got lost. Fucking prick only got out the car to ask my neighbor where the house was. Fucking twat I nearly didn't answer the door I was in the horrors, couldn't have been a worse miss match to be coming here.
Anyway he had requested I wear a leather jacket with leather gloves, his cock smelt gross can you imagine some guy in a shell suit trying to be gagged on my bed with my hand over his mouth. No don't ! I really had to speed things up and go into full hurry up and come mode so you can get the fuck out. Even the money I charged him didn't compensate for starting the day to that ! Hope he doesn't call again, its ones like that you don't want to see again.
No wonder he has to pay for it wanker. Right that's my ranting over, not for long though plenty more of him around. Well got a full day tomorrow going to see my regular client Dave in malvern hes alright as long as his fucking dog stays off the bed ! how much more can this girl stomach !!!
444
Hola, well here i am sitting here feeling very happy and feeling that things are all good. Had a good week probably the same things going on but me feeling like im more in control of my life. I havent touched any cocaine all week and wow how much money have i banked. Im not going to blag i did 7 days and did get drawn into fancying some today so i have fallen off the waggon so to speak but im not feeling my usual horrible self like i am so used to. But that feeling of leading a normal well i wont say normal cause i dont use that word what is normal. However i have had an awsome structured week and enjoyed it so much more than the fuzz of life i have become so accustomed to. Its all a learning process dealing with my addiction yes i am going to type that and admit to it for the first time. I was tempted to do it through a sociable event rather than the norm of going on mad binges on my own. Did i enjoy it or am i enjoying it seen as im still on it. Yes because im enjoying the fact that it will soon be replaced with much more things or feelings that, that fucking shit can ever make me feel. Ive always been aware that it has been a subtitute or something that i do just because nothing else is going on. If your reading this and thinking what the fuck is she going on about then just tell me but i think im talking well trying to understand why i do certain things. Anyway if you have been reading this adventure of mine you may remeber i have become more aware of my heart and soul of lately. 444 you may wonder my title of choice today well: Did i mention angels a little while back well maybe some will think this is a crock what an earth is this girl going on about well i dont give a hoot im gonna try and unravel my recent events. So here goes i met a girl during the last week through a kind of friend of mine turns out shes very spiritual we got talking and i touched down on little things i have been reading lately. She mentioned a site which i stored in my favorite box as i do to read when im ready. Anyway i went into this site that she had mentioned and was drawn to a brief article on sequenced numbers it stood out so i read it. Anyway i have over the last few weeks found a spiritual site which at times i may add have been on there and maybe at times felt flustrated but still kept going back. Within an hour of going into a chat forum the only person or first person i connect with is called 444bloke. It wasnt until i started listening to my intuition that it all of a sudden started to fall into place. I have given this man i met this journal address i hope he reads it and maybe well lets just see. He didnt scare me the truth dosent frighten me as i told him. I dont no this man he dosent no me but he heard me he listened and that felt good. Anyway im going to be back real soon be nice watever situations arise everyone has there day xxxxxxxxxxxHappy Dayzzzzzzzz are here to stay
Grandey day has rocked so far well probabley too far lol. Anyway got a client this morning whilst still on a bender. They always get fucked good when im in this mood infact i should have been paying him. Next client landed with his laptop looking rather shady i suppose i wd if i was booked in for a thrashing. Ha when he landed at my door he was completly different to the one i thought he was. They all talk to me like i remember thm ye right ! however turns out as i was wrecked dont forget im fuzzy when he stood by by bed i remembred who he was as he said he was "Hi Kate its Pete i came for a spanking not long ago. Anyway it turned out i did do him but this time he was suited and booted not casual. Ha he just dropped his pinstripe trousers around his ankles and bend over. I used a leather gold belt and thrashed the fucking living daylights out of him. He was dooing all this i had to mark him so he could show his casual fuck as he put it what he had had done for her. I asked him if he was homersectual no he asked where i got that from i had just made it up in my mind cause it sounded good He He as he was late i used it to my advantage as it allows me to justify the rush to get them on there way LOL i thought that was it forgot i hadnt made him cum he turned over and all of a sudden i remembered his silly little mushroom dick. I put the condom on and as he came at that very second the condom fell of and he shot on my hand. I was helpless that is so not OMG first time i ran to the bathroom poor guy must have been in the horrors the way i treated his cum shot. Thankgod he only had to pull his trousers up from his ankles and of he went. Tim booked me for two hours bought a bottle of wine around and ended up getting the groove on with him. Hes so sweet but he kept hounding me for some sort of sexual contact. I was too busy flying i guess infact Tims probably gonna fuck his wife tonight. Im still feeling very positive no one does these benders like me. Ill be back xxxxxxxxxxxxxWhat the fuck
Hey yall ! well thought id share with you this funny well hideous more like experience i had. Received a call from my advert this week from a guy called Roger, anyway he sheepishly asked me if i catered for fetishs. Well not normally as i find them absolutly ridiculous and very unnesesary. Anyway Roger had a request that i would go to his house that evening and disrespect his house. So it was all booked even though i was at that stage not sure what he wanted me to do. Roger called me during that afternoon to ask me if i had any requests for food while he was in Sainsburys i was polite and told him to carry on. Anyway landed at my 9PM booking Roger came to the door very bog standard Joe public guy. As i stepped into his living room he showed me all of the shopping on the coffee table! WTF lined up was a packet of weetabix cereal, rice crispies cornflakes a packet of digestive biscets and a family pack of cheesy quaver snacks. He informed me of his fantasy, check this out he totally wanted me to disrespect his furniture. You should have seen me he was sitting on his hands n knees naked wanking while i had to trash his yard. Look what the fuck im doing to your fuckin house Roger look at the fuckin state of this room "yes mistress" i was frixbeying biscets around his house ha if you could have seeen him look at what the fuck im doing "yes mistress" i had to climb all over his sofa trashing it and totally disrespecting his house. Haaaaaaaaaaa Roger the gas man sitting in the room wanking his cock while im crunching the whole contents of the coffee table into his carpet i loved every minute of it it was mental. Ha he even told me i was sexy as hell but did i mind if he didnt touch me. Did i mind when he had finished his ridiculous fantasy he cleaned my gucci shoes which were stuck with cheesy quavers. OMG were an earth did he get that from. The fuckin floor looked like it had been used as a fuckin rubbish dump. Yess mistress haaaaaaaaaaaaaa £300 for me trashing his house!!!!!! LMFAO12 months to the day
I got here, well was just thinking how this time last year to the day near enough i confessed to my parents my cocain addiction. Thats a story on its own as always, but yes im 12 mnths on same old well yes that would be right. Infact i would not be surprised if im doing more. Well had a good week started my need for these ridiculous binges on Thursday trying to wait till the weekend so i tell myself. Still holding on and staying up infact ive joined another NYC single site i think im obsessed by screwing a Manhatten man! i wouldnt mind but 5 years ago i actually lived out there and came home! wonder wat my life would be doing now with the man who wouldnt stop loving me. Had it all you name it but i guess i would rather hustle than be treated like a princess. No thats actually not true just not going to end up with someone that isnt my Mr right whoever that may be. Anyway as i said can you believe on the singles site i saw a client i had seen he was even in the picture on the bed we fucked on. Actually im not surprised nothing surprises me except my love for the devils dandruff. Im not even getting depressed over it ive done that but im feeling like my nasal is held toghether by skin that feels as thin as a rizzla paper and i feel rough. From babe to boot again one day i may treat my body with a little more respect. Jesus just looking at the cognac near empty bottle i am a chief caner lol. Im still waiting for when i click on my statistics and see i have more readers its not that important to me. But it would be cool morning papers just landed i guess ill put them with the rest of my life that went on hold from Thursday. Kinda funny really if i sit here an asses the implications that have arose from my mamouth binge. To start the fridge will have to loose the vegetables and salad and my milk. My washing will be piled high with different outfits i have worn whilst acting the clown on webcam covered in lipgloss usually and liquer. My bedroom will be trashed with dildos and CDS and all that will need washing up is ashtrays with enough ash in to well you no and glasses. Dont i come out with some silly nonsence. Thats before ive looked in the mirror. Never no could be flying to NCY this time next week never no with me. Went to bed a few hours ago but i just had to get back up obviously after giving myself the best pounding im ever gonna get until i get a real man and thats true. Even have some new wanking material which is always good. Another of my theories you can get fucked by the best fuck ever but it never stays fresh in your mind so to speak. And i guess when you havent got anything to think about its saying sort it out updated material is what i provide in a sense. LOL that says it all, all the men i meet and of course i meet great men i meet sad men ugly men, fit you name it i meet the lot but they never spring to mind. Maybe if they paid to be included then i may we hey. Even my lillies on the table look like they have felt the toxins from this room. Infact they have seen bettter days. Oh i love to amuse ! i was even calling this guy i met online in phillydelphia as being behind time wise fits in with my timeing. Typical yank screening my call via voicemail. Well im out of here hope im back real soon the more the better you will no why. Goodbye to the 2 people reading this in like 20 seconds haaa you will find me. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee big love and light.Lets get this thing going
Hello, well having transferred all of my old blog over to this one hopefully i will have more enthusiasm to keep it going. Felt amazingly well this morning when i awoke having only had 3 hours sleep due to another cocaine binge! just seen my first client of the day at 1pm my 12.00 12.30 and 12.45 failed to show more timewasters. Anyway he wasnt the best of clients to see especially smelling so badly of BO god did he stink. When he came eventually, god why do they take so long or was it the stench that seemed to last forever i went to the bathroom to get him some tissue and came back to find him liking his own spunk of his hands. Just took another call for a 3pm appointment in Solihull so i will report back with the Goss ! Well finally found a moment to report back of my eventful day its now nearly 10pm. Anyway landed at my 3pm appointment as i drove through the huge electric gates i could see my client on his doorstep well you couldnt miss him in his tanga briefs. Broke the ice with the usual speel and air kisses and getting the nasty bit out of the way I.E the wonga !! asked me if id like a drink meaning coffee i suggested some vino which i guess played a part in how the rest of my day has turned out meaning drinks go hand in hand with the old marching powder. Anyway he proceeded to his plasma setup he being him as i didnt even ask him his name, not that that matters im sure he would have been a john pete or dave usuall names these men seem to come out with. Anyway i had to massage his cock with baby oil whilst he shoved the smallest dildo ive seen up his arse i suggested he upgrade to a real machine ! he had me leaning over his bar stool, leaning back on his lazy boy and in general really making the most out of his hundred pound fee in the end i had him wanking his own cock as i find that such a chore it bores the shit out of me. Anyway came away feeling very merry which led me to the devils dandruff second day on it this week hope im not falling of the waggon again. Anyway seen a few clients this evening in between cooking dinner for my friend who im sure was loving lying on my sofa hearing me in the next room getting laid. Feeling totally wrecked now so i wont be seeing anymore clients unless they are on the same level !about
Cocaine, Champayne, Sex, Money and bullshit. Forget Belle De Jour, Bridget Jones who's she !! this is the real deal enjoy xx
About Me
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