Tuesday, July 18, 2006
No more tears left to cry.
Well if you have been wondering where I have been I apologies. I have so much catching up to do since I have moved, which I will try and relay back from the pieces of A4 paper I have at the side of me. I have not been able to update this blog as I still am waiting for my broadband to be installed.I have popped over to my friends house with all my manual blog I have kept this last ten days or so.
Things have not turned out the way I had hoped, as you know I moved into my dream home just over a week ago. Something awful has happened to me, my darling Tallulah Belle has been lost.
It is now the early hours of Tuesday morning, I have just got in from seeing one of my regular clients. he has done his best to hold me and hug me and try and make things better but even he knew what ever he did would not be able to take my pain away.
I have just spent another hour kerb crawling the local streets in search of my baby. It is now nearly a week since I last saw her little face.
The not knowing what has happened to her is killing me the most. I have never cried so much in my whole life over anything than I have done over loosing my shadow.
My pillow yesterday was soaked with tears I sobbed my little heart out remembering the last four years she has spent in my life from the day I had her. The countless trips to the vets trying so hard to find a cure for all of the things that always seemed to be wrong with her. The hours months and years I have waited so patiently waiting for her to give me her full trust like Maxwell has with me.
The times I never got angry with her when she had her regular occurrence of systitis and weeing on my designer bed sheets. Putting up with her scratching my house to bits and just all in all being a total liability and that she was, everything was always about Louley.
I keep thinking how am I ever going to settle into this new house without her until I see her little face.
I have had shit happen as you know, but I always bounce back up and come back stronger but I really do not know this time. I don't even want to live here now I have been in a totally daze for the last week. My dream home is now full of sadness and shattered dreams.
Im trying to keep my head up and not give up hope, but it is so hard. This was so not part of the plan i would do anything to get her back.
I guess the only person at the moment i see smiling is the candy man!
Take care.
: 1:08 pm
I hope she is safe where she is. Have you tried to put up posters where you says you wants her dead or most alive?
the worst thing when pets dissapears is that you not know what has happend...
: 1:25 am
I use to find a kitty on our lawn furniture trying to get in the apartment we‘ve just moved to. I found out it was the kitty of the previous tenants. They came and picked it up :)
: 8:52 am
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